Always said I would know where to find love, Always thought I'd be ready and strong enough, But some times I just felt I could give up. But you came and you changed my whole world now, I'm somewhere I've never been before. Now I see, what love means.
It's so unbelievable, And I don't want to let it go, Something so beautiful, Flowing down like a waterfall. I feel like you've always been, Forever a part of me. And it's so unbelievable to finally be in love, Somewhere I'd never thought I'd be.
In my heart, in my head, it's so clear now, Hold my hand you've got nothing to fear now, I was lost and you've rescued me somehow.
I'm alive, I'm in love, you complete me, And I've never been here before. Now I see, what love means.
When I think of what I have, and this chance I nearly lost, I cant help but break down, and cry.
Now I see, what love means
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Pickies taken from the most awesome date ever!
--->20.09.08<---
Missing Y.O.U!!
A lot...
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Baby, set me free, from this misery, I can't take it no more..
Since you ran away nothing's been the same Don't know what I'm living for Here I am so alone And there's nothing in this world I can do
Until you're back here baby.. Miss you, want you, need you so, Until you're back here baby, There's a feeling inside I want you to know You are the one and I can't let you go
So I told you lies, even made you cry Baby, I was so wrong Girl, I promise you now my love is true This is where my heart belongs
'Cause here I am so alone And there's nothing in this world I can do
And I wonder Are you thinking of me? 'Cause I'm thinking of you And I wonder Are you ever coming back in my life?
Its so the STONED!! Been singing this song in my head all day!!
Dunno y..
So i guess i'll juz let yall have a listen....
Enjoy...
Jimmy Eat World - Work
It's my first day of work, and my desk is already like this :S
Who knew there's a golf course rite outside.. if im bored, sure!! i'll juz look outside and watch boring ppl play the boring-est game ever!
Wo0ts! I am soo0o0 excited!
Here's another view from the office.. Great! Now when i look this way, all i see is constuction! A perfect way to de-stress... *Sarcasm*
Everybody gotta have a winning plan rite? Thats how successful people become SUC-cessful...
Aint no shame learning this way... Everybody gotta start from scratch rite?
Work stress pilling up already....
Thank GOD for caffeine!!!
When you fall, all u can do is pick ur arse up and get back on the blooming bike! Yeah! like i have a choice!!
Feels like school all over!! Yup, that's wad sem breaks are for rite?
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No matter wad, I've gotta prove myself worthy!!
HardworkingnesS, Aho0o0Y!!!!
-I will sUrViVe-
The day was so "HUHU-fied". Why? Coz with only 4 hours of sleep, it really doesnt make up for it. And the previous days b4 that, with only 1 (ONE) hour of sleep to last for 2 days? Whoah, one doesnt need to be Einstein to figure out that the balance of equality is totally out. I seriously dozed off one too many times at my desk. Even before lunchtime, i already jug down 2 mugs of coffee! Wished i had redbull, but there werent any 7-11 in sight! Even kedai runcit pun elek!! So had to settle for the next best thing... CAFFEINE!
The place is called Phileo Damansara, it's near Eastin Hotel (literally jus next door), PJ. So the corporate like man, everybody there was in shirt and tie and crappy classy stuff. Even cars there are BMWs and Merc. O-M-G!! Its like their hang out spot of the "Burn My Wallets" and the Merces!! But me, i was juz in jeans and a polo shirt and my roti banjir in the morning... Cant help being the black sheep. As always la. LOL!
So wad i need to do is gather information about specific local industries, run some research on em, basically know as much of them as i can. And today being my 1st day, i was given a whole task of researching the Traveling agencies in the whole of KL! To my freaking kahoonas suprise, there are thousands of agencies like that in KL!! Yeah, the most i could do today is just a mere 250 companies... I guess the phrase: "Taking baby steps" really does apply here. Lil to my attention did i know that im gonna be calling every single one soon.
But the fun part of it all is that the names i come across when i run my research is seriously UNSERIOUS!! I mean come on man, who's sir name goes "LA"? Imagine, Mr. Stephen La? LOL!! OWh and the rich and the royal really gotta work on their names too. The companies i looked up on has COO's and CEO, Directors, Managers etc who has freaking stuck up names wei. Take for example. Who the fella has a name with the word "Tunku" repeated 3 times in his name? Aint that kinda literally cries out DESPERATION out in the open? It should be a crime in progress! Why isnt the ISA doing anything about that?LMAO!!!! With entics like that, am looking forward to em biz calls. hehehe!!!
So that was Day 1 of working life!! Tmr starts a new day, meaning... A new HELL awaits!!
Today dated the most prominent event which happened exactly a month ago.
If you ask me to sum up the previous month into juz ONE word, Dang! Why the heck should I? After much thinking and self debating, why choose just ONE? When you can do more with many others. So, back to the question, my previous month? Was none other than a remarkably fantastic, sensationally astounding and increadible time of my life. If you're wondering why, well.. You guys juz have to take a lil journey down back in time in memory lane, just a simple scroll down to one of my previous posts. hehehe!
Dont know if you guys know this but here are some dates to remember!
23.08.08 - Church!
25.08.08 - Mamak!
26.08.08 - Movies!
27.08.08 - Muaks!
- 28.08.08 -
I just wanna add a few videos which i think is related to my current situation rite now.
Dont let their name fool you, their songs are cool.
Andra and the Backbone - Sempurna
"Kau adalah darahku,
Kau adalah jantungku,
Kau adalah hidupku, lengkapi diriku,
Oh sayang, engkau begitu
SEMPURNA"
It's pretty outdated but still feeeeeeling!!
Ryan Cabrera - It's You
"I'm standing before you with this label on my head,
Was bored in church today, so i ended up coming up with this crap.
Totally a spur of the moment.
So im not suprise if u guys have read better ones...
But here goes...
The Sun is shining, The River Flows, The Birds are singing, All to drown out your sorrows...
Drops of rain drips its soaking reign, It swarms over an entire district, To wash away the passings of yesterday, A new beginning now we pick...
WAKE UP! i've been laying here, MAKE HASTE! i've been standing aground, LEAP! i've been up afloat, LEAVE! I am homeward bound...
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Thats it!!
Cant think of anything else to add.
So00o0o need sleep wei..
Only had an hour of sleep for two nights continuously.
And no i did not sleep in the afternoon.
Plus wad makes it worst is that im starting work tmr.
My first day on the job and as of now, i only have 5hours to sleep.
That means i only took 7hours of sleep for 3days!
Dont wanna be a walking zombie tmr again.
Oh and before i go....
GLorY gLorY ManCheSteR uNiTeD!!!
They won yesterday against Bolton Wanderers
Final Score: 2-0
Goal Scorers: Ronaldo C. Rooney W.
Woo0ts!!
Friday, September 26, 2008
Staring at a blank screen... *aint good*
For the first time ever, i dont know wad to write. But i feel the need to write something. So here goes nothing... *i meant that quite literally*
I dont know what's goin on. With me, with her, with just about anybody... It's like everyone is so damn utterly disconnected and separated from each other. I dont feel like im needed anymore nor does anyone needs or heeds anybody these days. It's like i jumped into a vortex and ended up in a totally different dimension which is in the same place, same people, different bunch of arses. Everybody changed. Just not physically.
Been this way for the past week. Make that a few weeks... Lonely and abondoned is the word for it. Tho having people around me, but as i said, i am not needed. No one gives a F these days.
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Been and still am tryin to quit with all the cursing and my vulgarity.
So the words i limit myself to is: ->Shit ->Crap ->The letter F ->Bloody ->Damn The basic stuff la. Trying to really cut down. Be a better person. Not for anyone. But for my own self...
Just me.
But if you're asking me, i know a few other people who really shud. Infact the whole world should. Woudn't the world be a better place then? You see, Crapping already. So, to those who think im talking about cha here. *Hint hint*
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I finally got the chance to talk to Ellana... It was good to hear her voice once again and talked just as frens... Tho there were awkward silences and angels passing moments, it was good. I hope she's not mad still. Was really a jerk back then. But then we all need a wake up call rite? So yeah, we're letting go of the past and healing from the wounds. Good to know we're both moving on and along quite well. I wonder if she'll ever forgive me after all that i've done. I wish her well in all that she does and in life. Miss you lots E.
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That said....
Talked to my baby as well... She's having probs of her own rite now, i dont dare put my load on her as she has her own burdens to carry. I just wish that i could be rite there to comfort her and to tell her in person that everything's gonna be alrite. It kills me to know that i cant do anything here to make her feel better. Distance DOES make the heart grow fonder. Im wishing her the best in all that she encounters and that she may cope well with wateva's goin on.
Be strong, patient, calm and just take it easy.
Treat it as a roadblock, a test by GOD to let you know that you still need him in your life. Pray about it, as i will be praying for ya. I always have this phrase on my mind in times like this...
Tough times dont last, But tough people do....
Will always be there for ya... Anytime. Anywhere.
You got me....
She's been ignoring me later today. Was wondering why. Sumhow i knew it had something to do with wad i did earlier. I am truly and sincerely sorry. It wasnt any of my intentions to make you feel that way. I mean, what was i thinking? But im glad things went its course, and that we talked about it. It seems a lil more clearer and stress free now that everything's out in the open.
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Was so damn bored i turned to my Playstation 2 for entertainment. Seriously i find all my games damn friggin outdated.
As you can see, i NEED to update my games!
So thought i juz try out GTA and most wanted... AGAIN! *notice that there's only one controler? Sobs*
Next on my list:
Go shopping for more games!!
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Was screwing around with my blog and i recently added this Blogger Following function/feature.
It lets you stay updated with your favorite blogs right from your Blogger dashboard. By following your blog, your readers tell you and the world that they’re a fan of what you post. Your Dashboard now shows you how many followers each of your blogs has. With a click on the Followers icon, you can browse your followers, see what blogs they write, and read the other blogs they’re following.
Ok, u got me... i copied and pasted that. Damn lazy to type it all out wei. So neways, if you guys are interested or find my blog interesting and worth while your time to read, do follow me on. The link to click is on my right side bar. The bottom-est column. Guess i'll be back with other stuff which i hope is worth more than nothing. hehehe.
So guess that's pretty much it for now... Like i said, here goes nothing. So nothing is all i wrote. Going off now. Nothing to crap about ady.
Nothingness is all i feel.
Ciouz! p.s. Notice for the first time, no title...??
My tears run down like razorblades and no, I'm not the one to blame, it's you or is it me? And all the words we never say come out and now we are all ashamed And there is no sense in playing games, when you done all you can do.
I lose myself in all these fights; I lose my sense of wrong and right. I cry... I cry... I'm shaking from the pain that's in my head. I just want to crawl into my bed and throw away The life that I led. But I won't let it die.
But it's over... it's over... Why is it over? We had the chance to make it. Now it's over... It's over... It can't be over. I wish that I could take it back.
It's not over... It's not over... it's never over unless you let it take you It's not over... It's not over... unless you let it break you. It's not over.
I know you probably wont get to read this, emotions and feelings overwhelms me and i juz need to let it out. You never wanted to listen. Never. So if you're reading this, i hope you do with an open heart. All you talk about is respect these days, but i really dont see any coming from you. You may say i do not respect you and i can never change the way you think. No one can. And maybe thats the person you are. I will never change in your eyes. The one person whom i respect the most, turns around and stab me rite infront of my eyes. The worst of it all is that being who you are in my life, you think it gives you the rite to treat me that way. The pits of my frustrations lies in how you could demean, debase and mortify my campanions in which i rest all my pain and despair of this worldly circumstance. The answer is no. You own no right to decide and opt with whom i may find leisure with. As rebelious as you may think i am, i tried running around the field of your commands and demands. Profusely as you keep on gripping the cuffs on my wrist tighter, I fall harder to the ground, no matter how loud i may scream, all that you hear is a silent cry fading out and blending in with the pouring of your grave inequanimity.
You are so stubborn!! You dont even want to listen to what i have to say!! And then you have the nerve to ask me why am i so unhappy? Are you so blinded by your own ignorance that you dont even see you're the cause of it. Call me arrogant, call me disrespectful, call me the apple that has fallen far from the tree, call me anything you want, you dont even know me to begin with. You dont even try. For everything in my life i just feel like you wont accept. Your world is so different from mine, we will never be on the same page. Therefore you wont know how i lead my life, how i am so damn bloody good in my studies now, the bloody big role i play in my waking hours, how much i've change over the years, even how much i've been doing for you and you alone. It's never gonna be enough for you because all you do is assume the worst of me based only on your own assumptions especially when all you think of me as a worthless piece of crap, a burden to you and to many, and later you get mad for no reason at all! And when you do, it's always your way. Your word is always the last to be said, the dot ends on your account. The truth is never gonna be revealed in the course of your anger and your temper. A bad humour like yours, nothing will!
You are stirring me to every direction in my life. Beyond nurturing and shaping the person i am, building me brick by brick having the one in me locked up, unknown and imprisoned. I no longer am who i am, I cannot be that person. For you are designing every aspect of my life as you want it to be thus not of my own. Let there be a weak structure, let there be a misplaced stone, a loose skrew, worry not for you have built me a strong foundation, a base for me to turn to, to rest my anguish, to build a structure of my own. You need not interfere nor worry with the length and width, for your foundation is strong to support whatever i will produce upon it. Leave it be, and i assure you, my life will be a constitution for many to follow. A marvel for by your own hard work and exertion in which i based it upon.
I know i have made a mess of things in the pass. But who doesnt? I am sure another blunder of me will soon take its place. That is life. and im dealing with it. Why arent you? If only you can just let the past go. I was young and idiotically fooled by the circumstance of being a mere teenager running thru that phase. Just close the door to the past, lock it and throw away the key. Reoccuring and reliving it would only cause more intensity and displeasure for all. So will it be if you keep placing the faults on me. You somehow link every thing bad thats been happening in your life to me as tho im the cause of it. At the same time, you want what's best for me, i get that. But it wouldnt be ample of life if you keep it from happening to me. Let me get hurt, let my heart get torn apart, let me fall off the bike, let life's bad times come over me. I will learn to pick myself up and get back on the bike, i will learn that no matter what, my heart will always have you in it, and i will learn, that life has it's good times as well.
Rest your faith in me, do not be doubtful and just leave me be. I screech of independence, freedom from your grip. Let me make my own mistakes and learn the lesson of life's unfolding experience as my coming to the bridge, i shall cross it by my own. Rather that than letting me make your mistakes in my life. I am not boosting, nor am i arrogantly asking you of this, it is something i feel i have to do. If only it is in your approval and grace.
This time of my life only come around once. Is it too much to ask that i live it for myself? I know that i have responsibilities and obligations to keep up with. But it cant be just me doing everything. We have to come to an understanding and compromise. We give and we take. Im tired of being the one constantly giving and having my neck on the line. In that, you can call me calculative... Calculatively wanting to have my own time by myself with my friends. Outside influences is never the question, you can blame others for me acting like this, but in reality, im doing this on my own account. This is me. The me which you dont know exist. I will change only for the better. If i somehow fall short, i will change. But i will always be ME for I am Who i am... And nobody can change that. Not you, not anyone.
You yourself require a change of character as well. The way you treat me all this while shouldnt be. If you're willing, start by listening to me and what i have to say. Then only can our bond be stronger. I have my own voice too, the little voice which you have close your ears and worst still your heart against. Listen to it with an open heart and close the ears of ignorance..
I tried to be perfect But nothing was worth it I don’t believe it makes me real I thought it’d be easy But no one believes me I meant all the things I said
If you believe it’s in my soul I’d say all the words that I know Just to see if it would show That I’m trying to let you know That I’m better off on my own
This place is so empty My thoughts are so tempting I don’t know how it got so bad Sometimes it’s so crazy That nothing can save me But it’s the only thing that I have
I tried to be perfect It just wasn’t worth it Nothing could ever be so wrong It’s hard to believe me It never gets easy I guess I knew that all along.
Alrite.... after all thats been said. I juz have one word in my mind!!
PHEW!!!!
Exams are officially over! Been reading a lot of blogs lately and notice most of em are basically the same as wad's gonna be in here. Screwing the exams up and shitting the fella-ing all over! LOL! But i cant deny, been studying alot.. Mostly last minute. But what the heck, i STUDIED!! N rite now the post-examination effect is stil going on in my room!
Berselerak to the max!!
Tho it seems that i have all the time in the world rite now, but i really dont. Been doing loadsa cleaning lately around the house. N then again.. there's always the forsaken work -> CHORES! In the end, cant do shit about my own room. The thing that im glad about is T-G-E-I-O!!
Thank God Exam Is Over!!
Good bye:
-> Late nights!!
-> BookS!!
-> Panda Eyes!!
-> Classes!!
-> Skrewed up lecturers!!
-> Caffeine!!
-> Stress!!
-> Ass-ignments!!
-> Presentations!!
-> President's List!!
-> n other shit stuff!!
Believe it or not... half of this was consumed overnite!!
Me alternative to Energy drinks, SWEETS!!!
So, what can i say about the laz 2 papers, pretty much skrewed up Cultural and Religious Practices paper, but i hope to do better in Intro to Advertising... Gosh, i know i could do better than this!!
Malaysia: Cultural and Religious Practices... Altho i really really dont understand wad the lecturer is yapping about in class most of the time due to all the mumbo jumbo mumbling and unheard of words, at least she knows wad she's teaching and comes to class well prepared! Introducin Ms Ira Meilita!! The tips given were damn exact wei... Sad to say didnt study proply for this paper... How i think i did in it? Im hoping to score a B grade la... haihhz! The paper was separated into 2 sections: Section A, Short Answer and Section B, ESSAY!! Im really hating essays now wei... Can say that i knew the answer to all the questions, but the only shit part of it all is that i cudnt elaborate much on the points i have. Which is pretty critical based on the marks allocated to the given questions! Ouch!! i know! hurts like shit... So wad did i do? Easy... CRAP!! N i do mean A LOT OF CRAP!! The funniest part of the paper was when i was staring blankly around the exam hall, i saw:
Adrian: Dozy off with his mouth terngange!! JImmy: Doing nothing... Everybody else: Bz writing crap as well...
N thats it for Cultural!!
Intro to Advertising... 1st of all, the COOLEST lecturer ever in utar!! With common terms like "monkeys" and "kampung mari", Mr Lim Soo jin is one of the easy going type of lecturer. Plus, the way he teaches is sooo the cool. Relating it to us students *which all the lectueres should do* and the attraction factor always present, Guaranteed! Sleepiness free!! Yeah so the paper was okie i guess.. Trust me, after going thru some other crap papers like MMS and Cultural, it was certainly cool to end with a good feeling. There were 3 sections of the paper: Section A was MCQwhich i finished in 5minutes... Section B was ESSAYS!! haihz... Again.. HAting em essays!! n last but not least, Section C, creating a new advertisement for some ice cream company... To tell you the truth, i was pretty much freaking out for that part... But in the end, did the part in 20minutes! its a good sign btw... Gosh, felt like im back in kindergarden... had to draw human sticks! u know em sticks for the arms and legs and a huge ball for the head? It was part of our work la, i had to create a whole TVC commercial for it.. In the end target grade: A!! hehehe
That's a rep for this sem ladies n gent!! See you nex sem! hehehe!!
A day of random madness, add in a lil classy restaurant, plus two out of the ordinary bunch of human beings... Whoala!!! AwEs0mEnesS!!! Introducin to yall, The C. Club!! A place where passion meets a taste of classy-ness! Located in the heart of BB area in Pavilion, this is a double storey shop lot where the 1st level has a breath taking display of jewelery and jewelery only (think its on sale but who cares!) and the upper level is the dining area. The choice is yours to either have a good view of the BB area and its ever honking traffic from the balcony up above or juz have the same old same old dining experience indoors. As long as u got the cash for a huge tip, then nothing shud be in ur way to this "fiiiiiiine" dining place.
Check out the interior in the dining area!!
My personal fav, The BAR!!!
-Enjoying me fruit punch-
His so called "Permed Hairdo" la kononnye!
Silence!! I Kill you!!! hehhee!
Watcha looking at huh?
They were gaduh-ing.. wad la!
She was merajuking still!!
But then, they got back together... Aww! happy ending! *Clap clap!*
Wad la... havent seen a drink b4 izzit?
Finally!! the long wait, Food is SERVED!!
Guess this fella here cannot tahan.. Terpakse batal puase! muahaha!
This was none other than an excellent experience. An afternoon delight with sis and Diksha and then a lil shopping around Pavilion, Sg wang, and Low Yat Plaza to keep the weight under control there. A perfect midday meal goes with some straineous work out of SHOPPING!
Oh, n i shud point out, the bill was *Drum Roll*
Cha ching!! RM 188.60!!!
When it was time to go, and when u think the day was too good to be true, well yeah! Guess agaiN! It was pouring cats and dogs and elephants outside and the worst part of it all was that the car was parked in another building. I know this is gonna sound really gurlified, but me n diksha both wore our new "ice creams"!!! Damn sakit hati wei wanna run in the rain. hahaha!! So we waited and me got us a drink and lepak summore in the food court. Finally when the rain settled down a lil, we decided we were juz too friggin tired to care abt the rain and picked up the courage to get our shoes wet... :'( Dont worry, it didnt get wet. N no, this aint the end juz yet.. after finally getting back to Sg wang (where the car was), all of us forgot where we parked the car!!! Alamakz!! So wad do we do, since we know it was parked near nandos, we had to walk out again in the friggin rain, found nandos and only got dumbstruck to know that the car was only a level above where we were searching for... Sigh!
As the world revolves around the sun, Picking up new light everyday, To give new hope to those who have lost theirs, To provide warmth to many, Shining its light thru the spectrum of droplets fall, It spins its course turning one to darkness and another so brightly...
As a leaf turns over a new life, The dawn marks a new beginning to all, Shadows of the past will fade away, As new light covers the hollow spaces, Victory is won yet again till darkness falls once more, and again, Victory shall prevail...
For all to see... A hapPy ending is inevitable!!!
Here are some personal fav of my sunrise moments...
KUaLa LuMpuR, The 0nE aNd oNLy pLaCe i cALL h0Me, Malaysia
D.O.B: 01.Dec.1987. Me Likes: McD's + Music + Mamaksessions + movies + chatting + sleeping + dating + much more!!
Me hates: the opposite of me likes... :P
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